Monday, May 7, 2012

Self injury and Kati Morton's video CUTTING / The what and why of Self-Harm

This was a great video. It's easy to understand and to the point as with all of Kati's videos. I like how she said anything she says wasn't meant to glorify nor shame any of these behaviors.

Self injury is something I have struggled with since I was about 8 years old. I had been abused by a neighbor and did not feel I could talk to my parents about what happened. Over the years since, I have struggled with it in times of stress.

Self injury for me was something I started because I could not speak about what was bothering me. I felt I would get into trouble for what happened. So I turned my emotions inward and took my emotions out on myself. It was a way of coping with the trauma of what happened.

In learning to speak about what I have gone through in my life. I have discovered I am no longer self injuring nearly as much, if any at all. I can't say everything is perfect in this area, Sometimes when I am stressed and feel I can't speak about something I do notice the temptation to do it, but I have learned to not act on those feelings the majority of the time, if I do act on them, I try and make a note of what triggered it. Learning what my triggers are and how to manage them has been one of the most helpful things. Not only for self injury but also for my eating disorder. I will admit everything is not perfect in either area. But I am happy with the progress I am making.