Certain people in my life trigger me to over eat. I do not eat thousands of calories in one sitting, but I do eat until my stomach is very uncomfortable. Then I feel guilty about eating.
The guilt is horrible..I feel guilty for eating when I am not hungry. I feel guilty for letting this person get to me. I should just cut off all contact with them. I feel trapped, cutting off all contact will affect everyone in my family.
I need to set some boundaries.. I do not know how. If I say do not post on my facebook, or start chat with me.. it will cause problems. When they do these things I feel backed into a corner. It's easier for me to just let them walk all over me and delete posts and messages later.
I decided to spend some time on the finding balance site tonight, I should have done this when the triggers came instead of heading to the kitchen. There's an video on emotional eating. I have always claimed I am not an emotional eater.. but I do eat when triggered. Finding balance has a great resource section with articles and videos.. videos are my favorite. I ended up watching the video on emotional eating and sadly I have to admit once again binging tonight was due to emotions that were triggered earlier today on facebook by someone whom I have no boundaries set. I should have sat back and just waited til my emotions were scaled down to a 4 or so before even leaving my room. but no I left the room when it was at a 9/10 and ended up in the kitchen eating food my body did not need to have.
I am thankful tomorrow is a new day and I hope to get back on track in a more healthy way.
