This week we had company... my friends had lost a ton of weight..and they told us how they did it...I admit I am jealous.
I'd love to drop 20+lbs in a month.. I have done it. i know it can happen. I also know I'd be in my size 6 jeans if I did. I have about 3 pairs of size 6, and only 1 pair in whatever size I wear right now.. it's tempting I admit.
However how they did it, I do not agree with.. many of my friends are on the hcg diet. I have done so much research into that diet, If you go to the dr. and get actual hormone injections, it's totally messing with the body. If you get the homeopathic hcg, it's basically nothing.
The key to losing the weight is the 500 calorie a day diet. My friends were amazed that they did not feel hunger and attributed it to the "hcg" I however know as someone who restricts, it only takes a couple days for the sense of hunger to go away. When I am not eating, I do not feel hunger either.
When they asked me how I lost my weight this year.. I held back telling them how I actually have been struggling off and on with restricting my food. It's been a little over a year and I have lost about 25lbs.. I am not currently losing much of anything at the moment.. I have maintained my weight pretty much for months now. for me this is a healthy decision. Sure I'd love to drop my weight but I am working on not restricting, so whatever comes off, comes off at a snail slow pace.
The last couple days my jealousy has been bad. I am also a little obsessed with the size of my calves, sometimes my thighs. however I found a site that will rate you against others in America., technically this can be dangerous, but for me it's helpful. I have discovered even though I feel huge, I am not huge, I am smaller than the average woman. supposedly. who knows if that is accurate though. But it tells me "Your calves are smaller than 55.11% of the women in the nation and 0.7 inches smaller than the average female". My perception is flawed.
I have had many lessons this week.. Jealousy is one of them, I admit it...even though it's not solved, I can recognize it and work on it when situations come up.
Another lesson is totally trusting that God is in control of situations and letting him be in control. Giving up the control of the situation was hard. But I finally did it. My hamster Gracie went missing on Wed night. she was not upstairs at all, so it looks like she had been gone since possible the middle of the night early wed. morning. I usually check on her in the morning when I wake up but I had no memory of doing that. Around 8pm I was wondering why she was not up yet.. so I checked on her.. and she was not in her cage. The cage looked untouched, but the door to her potty which opens from the outside for cleaning was not latched. I spent hours looking for her upstairs. We found not one dropping downstairs so we figured she was upstairs. I searched for her for about 24 hours with a 2 hour nap. I searched upstairs and downstairs in every room. I did not find her. I was ready to give up hope.. I just totally gave God this situation and went upstairs and ate dinner Thursday night. I took 1 bite, When my mother came into my room and told me she heard scratching in my grandmother's room downstairs. The more we spoke the louder it got.Smart girl was trying to make herself known to us. We moved the bed out and Gracie was there and finally safe. She was very thin, dehydrated and weak. we figured she was missing for about 30+ hours give or take. it's been a rough couple days for her but she's finally recovering and gaining her weight and strength back.
